I came home from work this morning excited to get working on this blog.
I'm on my second cup of coffee and....nothing. I'm stuck and I'm not sure what exactly I want to write about.
I totally expected this to be easy.
But just like every other aspect of life--not much turns out exactly as you expect it to.
I expected that by age 35, I'd have my life figured out. I'd have a career that brought in the big bucks. Maybe have a sweet little house with a garden and two new-ish cars in the garage. 2.5 kids and a dog....maybe a chihuauha named Poquito Tito or a rottie named Ernest. My son would play a sport and my daughter would be our little princess.
I never expected to have a job that I adore at a company I despise.
I never expected to go back to college in my 30's. And once I did...I never expected to get a B- in Intro to Nursing (didn't you know...I'm straight A's all the way? Or so I thought!)
Those 2.5 kids turned into 4. One is a computer geek with a passion for anime and WWII. Another is on the autism spectrum. He's celebrates EVERY holiday and even makes up more...because really...we could all use more celebration in our lives--right? He does an Arnold Schwarzenegger impression that almost brings tears to my eyes. The littlest is so charming....he can almost get away with murder--he'll make a great politician someday :) And I got a daughter whose idea of fun is dressing up like a zombie (she's my goth princess!). Oh yeah, and the dog turned out to be a five year old cat named Chaos that pees on everything we own. Seriously.
But you know what? I hate sports. I am so not the soccer mom type! I love makeup and holidays and cheesy celebrity impressions. I love each of them the way they are and I wouldn't change them for anything. Ok...maybe I'd make them a little neater--their rooms are a wreck!
I love school and I think that I appreciate the education that I'm getting more than I would have when I was younger.
And I know that it won't be much longer before I can ditch the job and say hello to my career. Who knows, maybe that house isn't so far off in the future either.
Most things don't turn out like you expect them too...but that's OK because what you get usually turns out to be just fine--if not even better than you could have ever expected.
And if you just take a deep breath and go with the flow....things you thought were going to be difficult usually happen without you even realizing it.
Just like this blog.