Moving Away? (GBE2 #116 Topic: First Steps)

I have a huge decision to make.

I want to make a gigantic change in my life.

I want to move.

 

 Not just around the corner or up the street.  Not to a nearby town or city.  Not even to a neighboring state.

I want to move ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE COUNTRY!!!

( Portland Baby!! My My dream wedding here I come!!!)

If you know me...or you've read this blog...then you may know that I've been having a love affair with the city of Portland for years.  Once I visited, the deal was sealed and I've wanted to be there ever since.

We've discussed it in the past.  We planned to move when all the kids were out of the house.  But recently, we've started feeling antsy...like a BIG change is just what we need.  

We've devised a plan.  We have a tentative date picked out.  Most importantly, we'll actually have the money to do it!  

Some of the kids are excited.  Some just flat out don't want to go.  I'm torn between making them happy and making one of my biggest dreams come true.  I'm torn between doing something terribly exciting and keeping things comfortable.

What if I can't find a job?  What if all the money runs out before we really get a handle on our new life?  

What if everyone hates it and they all resent me forever?

What if we all die from dysentery on the way?

What if?  What if?  What if?

I'm not taking this decision lightly.  I think about it every single day.  We talk about it constantly.  I keep telling people " I'm not comfortable with saying that we're actually going...but man, I sure want to..."

It is such a scary idea.

I'm so confused.

I guess for now we'll keep talking...researching and dreaming...working out the kinks in our plan.

Until...hopefully...we're ready to take the first step.

What's In Your Bucket? (GBE #28--Topic: Bucket List)

This week's topic has me smiling--big time!  'My Bucket List' was my very first blog that I wrote for the original GBE. 

MY BUCKET LIST

1.  Get an education:  I've been working on this one for a while and I'm almost done.  Unless, I decide to be a glutton for punishment and keep pushing forward.

2.  Take a real vacation:  Someday, I'd like to be able to take a week and do something really cool with my family.  We've taken day trips and even did an overnight stay in a resort town once, but we've never had a real vacation.

3.  Move to Oregon:  Is it possible for someone to have a crush on a city?  If so, I'm crushing big time on Portland, Oregon.  The pacific northwest is where I long to be.  If not Portland, then hopefully somewhere close to it.

4.  Get serious about writing:  I have bits and pieces written....scraps of stories and poems...but nothing truly finished.  My husband tells me that I have a gift worth being serious about.  But I'm such a slacker, his encouragement often falls on deaf ears.  But it would be nice to actually finish something....

5.  Perfect a 'British' accent:  This one  is just goofy--and I know it!  At my house, I play around with the kids doing impressions, funny voices, and accents.  I do a passable southern accent.  I do an awesome 'New Yawk' accent.  I pretend that I have a passable Boston accent.  But I really would love to be able to walk around the house all day speaking with a British/English accent!  And, no matter how much I practice, I just can't get it right! 

6.  Live long enough to see all my children achieve their dreams and find their happiness:  enough said :)


So...what's on your bucket list?